ok this is suppose to be a happy post...but after reading both yy n winnie's blog. i really felt that i shld hav done sumthing.

first happy thing [for me] i finally bought a keyboard!!!!! ppl hu see my blog will noe cuz i haven told nebody coz i just can't find the right time to say. =X i practically play it everyday but i still suck at it =.= another is i read finish the fruits basket n guess wat. i cried three times while reading...haha especially the last chapter where they all go their separate paths. its sooooooo sad. its the end of a vvvvvvvvvvv good story.its vvvv gd i feel like crying over it. +.+ n its the ending of a hellalotta shuai bois. ;D

ok nex is winnie n yy thing.
well i don really like to get involve with these things. coz it will only make you rmb y u hate sec sch living wif ur enemies...
ok n i admit i stayed as low profiled as possible. if u wan me to say hu is wrong i might hesitate for a moment n gib u no ans.
i think that by calling us dogs is rather a painful thing to bear dosen it? i was really sad and unexpectedly not angry when im bein called a dog. second thing i tot was that if i was a dog. i would like to becum a loyal german shepherd :]
neway u may think that im stupid but i really wished i have done sumthing to prevent these. but i just realised i don have the courage to do so. i believe that almost everyone is not as courageous too.
ok now i feel like i keep pinpointing yy.
once des, wj and winnie started chatting bout a time when they hated me.
winnie said that she hated me because i chose venice as the moniteress.but at tat time i really believed that venice have a stronger potential to becum moniteress. no offence but i deep within me i put justice and my own personal beliefs a little over friendship unless u are the kind of friend whom i noe we will be the bbf.
i met mani GREAT friends but....its kinda.... i dunnoe how to express it.T_T
no one reached the mark i guess
theres a barrier between the 2 grps and it seems impenetrable. but i alwaays tot that my allowing myself to be the middleman i might just bring the grp together. i admit i didn try the best i could ,onlly letting nature take its turn for the worse. having 2 stubbon bulls is wat i think supposedly caused this.

neway, feelings mixed together are undescribable. human have such complicated and intrigued mind that shld have been put into gd use. its so deep that ppl even tried to find the true meaning of it.

i don wish to tok bout it nemore. what im angry about its not about me being called a dog but merely the words of my friends bein pulled into this mess and called a dog builts up my fury. hilda's not a dog is she? i can tell u that hilda is the most innocent person i have ever met. n i love her very much so as to my friends. say me stupid or wat but sumthings are better said than left unknown. argh. u probably won understand this post coz too much is goin on. feelings of mine are not being expressed properly. n one more furious thing. THIS BLOG JUST TOOK UP ALL MY COMPUTER TIME D:<

Please let that moment last...

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